Kwiintsuku zakutshanje ilizwe loncwadi kwakhona linomntu ophambili kulo osandula ukubhubha uAna María Matute, kwaye yile yokuba kwiveki ephelileyo Inoveli eyabhubha emva komntu osihloko sithi "Demonios Familiares", izolo ibingumdlali ophambili weLiber 2014 ekusungulweni kwayo.
Ukongeza, namhlanje uzakuphinda abe yeyona nkwenkwezi iphambili kweli gumbi kuba eza kuhlawulwa kwaye kuzakufundwa esidlangalaleni inoveli yakhe yakutshanje efumaneka kuzo zonke iivenkile ezithengisa iincwadi ukusukela kwiveki ephelileyo.
Kolu rhafu emva kokufa kuka-Ana María Matute, ubuso obaziwayo obuvela kwihlabathi loncwadi olunjengoCarme Riera, uPere Gimferrer, umhleli uSilvia Sesé kunye nomlawuli weRAE, uJosé Manuel Blecua, uzakuthatha inxaxheba. Usekela Mongameli kaRhulumente, u-Soraya Sáez de Satamaría, kunye noMphathiswa weNkcubeko, u-Ferran Mascarell, bazokuzimasa.
Umrhumo wethu omncinci kulo mbhali, esiwuthandayo nesimthandayo nesimthandayo, kukukunika i Isahluko sokuqala kwinoveli yakhe entsha, onokuyithenga ngokuthe ngqo ekupheleni kokufundwa kwesi sahluko sokuqala.
I - Ifestile yookhetshe
Ngobunye ubusuku uKolonel wayeva umntwana ekhala ebumnyameni. Ekuqaleni wayezibuza ukuba ngubani, kuba kwakungekho mntwana owayehlala endlwini iminyaka emininzi. Ekuphela kwento eyayisele, kwitafile kaMama eyayisecaleni kwebhedi, yayingumfanekiso we-sepia, uncumo olucacileyo nolungavakaliyo — owayesazi ukuba luvela kuMama okanye emntwaneni - ludada ebusuku, njengebhabhathane elinamaphiko. Ngoku iinkumbulo zakhe, nkqu neziporho ezimnyama zephulo laseAfrika, zabonakala ngathi ziyinkunkuma, okuseleyo, iimvuthuluka zezonka kwitafile, kumthendeleko wamandulo. Kodwa inkumbulo yakhe yafumana kwakhona kwaye kwakhona umfanekiso kaFermín, umntakwabo omdala. Ufakwe kwisakhelo sakhe sevelveve, enxibe njengomatiloshe, encike kwindandatho yomthi, kwaye uhlala engumntwana. Njengesiporho esiphindaphindayo- "ayimangalisi, ngumntakwethu omdala, kodwa ndimdala kunaye" - wazingisa apho, akukho mntu wamsusayo etafileni, nditsho naxa uMama engasekho, wayetshatile kwiminyaka eyadlulayo. intombi yakhe yazalwa, kwaye uHerminia, umfazi wakhe, wayeswelekile.
Oko kwaqala ukuba mnyama, wayebekwe kwisitulo sakhe esinamavili, ngomqolo kwi balcony evulekileyo yegumbi lokuhlala. Yiyo ke le nto wayemi phambi kwesipili uMama awayejinga kuso, ukuze nabani na ojonga kuso, okanye nantoni na ebonakalisiweyo, abonakale ngathi bazokuziguqula. Yonke into yayinjalo, njengoko uMama ethanda ukusho, "inyathelo elingaphaya kwento ebonakala ngathi." Xa wabuza ukuba kutheni isipili singahambanga ngokupheleleyo eludongeni, njengemizobo, waphinda: "inyathelo elinye phambili", kunye nomoya omangalisayo womntu okhoyo nongekhoyo. Ukusukela ukusweleka kwakhe, waziva esondele kakhulu kunakuqala xa wayephila kwaye watyibilika endlwini engenangxolo, ehlala enesiliphu, engaqondakaliyo, njengophethe iimfihlakalo kunye neepasile ezigcinwe phakathi kothulwe. Kwaye ndaziva ngaphezulu kokukhumbula ezi zinto xa ukukhanya kweorenji kwavela kwikona yasekunene kwesipili, isenza isibhakabhaka.
Ngokukhawuleza uIago wayesecaleni kwakhe. Njengakwimihla awayengekasiso isicaka sakhe (njengoko wayembiza njalo), xa wayeselungelelanisiwe, akazange amve efika, wavele nje ecaleni kwakhe.
"Ndiye ndayokufuna uMiss Eva." Usekhaya ngoku, ”utshilo.
"Bawutshisile umzi woonongendi," wakhalaza watsho uColonel. Ngeli xesha yayilithuba lakhe… Yiyo loo nto ndandingafuni intombi yam… ”Wayeka. Olunye lweempawu zikaIago yayikukuba aqhubeke nencoko kunye nenkcazo encinci. Phakathi kwakhe no-Colonel kwakukho intambo engabonakaliyo yobudlelwane obusondeleyo kangangokuba babengenakudinga amagama ukuba baqondane.
-Ewe, uKolonel wam… ibingeyongozi… ndaya egaraji, ndayibopha imazi yehashe ukuze ndiye kwi-tílburi… Ndaye ndamkhupha, ndamzisa kwikhaya loonongendi kanye phambi kokuba bafike bephethe amagubu. Ngelo xesha, wayekhuselekile.
"Babengoobani ...?"
"Oqhelekileyo, Colonel wam." Ngaba ndikusa kwenye indawo?
"Hayi, ndiyeke ndinje, ngomqolo ebhalkhoni." Ndifuna ukuqhubeka ndijonga yonke into esipilini ... Wazi ntoni ngoonongendi?
"Bonke bahambe ngexesha endilaziyo." Abathathu bokugqibela, uMama u-Ernestina, oyena uphakamileyo, enabafundi ababini. Kwaye Nkosazana Eva, kunye nam.
-Okokugqibela?
"Hayi, Colonel wam, owokuqala kwabathathu."
Ngoku ilitha ligcwalise isipili phantse ngokupheleleyo, kwaye ulwandlalo lwedolophu lwalume mnyama mnyama ngokuchasene nesibhakabhaka esigobile phezu kwalo. Inyathelo elinye, wacinga. Kwaye wayecinga ukuba uyaliva ilizwi likaMama, umoya opholileyo endlebeni yakhe, onobunzima kwaye othambileyo kwangaxeshanye.
Kwakunokwenzeka ukuba xa kwakunzima kakhulu ukukuva. Kodwa ukwazi ukuba u-Eva, intombi yakhe, sele ekhuselekile ekhaya, kwabuyisela ukuzola awayekunandipha kumaxesha akutshanje. Nangona wayengazange avumele ukungonwabi kutyhile ubuxoki bomoya wakhe ongenakushukuma, ukunganyanzeleki kobuso bakhe. Akukho namnye, ubuncinci kuyo yonke intombi yakhe, owayenokwazi ukungakhululeki, ukukruquka okubangelwe sisigqibo sakhe, okumangalisayo, ukungena njenge-novice postulant kwikhonisithi awayefunde kuyo, umfundi, kuba wayeneminyaka esixhenxe ubudala. Kwaye ongazange eve ukuba uthetha indumiso, ngokuchanekileyo.
Kukunyanyeka oko, kongezwe kuloyiko- ewe, nkqu noloyiko, akanakuzikhohlisa- ukuba iziganeko zamva nje zivelise kuye. Iikhonsathi zitshisiwe, izihlobo ziyatshutshiswa, utshintsho kulawulo, iflegi ...
Akukho nesipili esinye kwikhaya loonongendi. Akukho nesipili sinye kwisisele sam: wayengakhange andibone unyaka. Yinto yokuqala eyenzeka kum xa uMama u-Ernestina wasidibanisa kwakhona eofisini yakhe. Kwakungaphaya kweveki sele ewushiyile umkhwa wakhe kwaye "wazenza umntu obhinqileyo," njengoko besitsho abo banqwenelayo. Sasisele sobathathu, amawele asemazantsi kunye nam. Abanye babebuyele kumakhaya abo, okanye iintsapho zabo bezizele bona. Umama u-Ernestina uye wasikhumbula ethe cwaka okomzuzwana, kwaye ekugqibeleni waqalisa ukulila. Kwakunqabile kakhulu ukubona isikhalo esiphakamileyo, esasangcangcazela ngaphezulu kwesihlandlo esinye. Ngoku, wasamkela nganye nganye wathi: «Wena, Eva, yiba noyihlo… Sele ethumele uIago ukuba akukhangele: ulinde wena ezantsi. Ndihamba namawele ndihamba nawo ... Sakubonana kungekudala, "wongeza kwangoko," okoko nje uThixo efuna. "
Ndatsiba ezantsi kwezitepsi kwaye, ndithe ndakubona ubuso obungqindilili nobuphantse bancuma bukaIago, enxibe iyunifomu yakhe eyinqaba eyazenzelayo eyedwa ngeempahla ezilahliweyo nguColonel, kwaye, ngaphezulu kwako konke, imazi ethandekayo uCatalina, ndandisele ndiza kubanga. Zombini. Kodwa ndakhwela kwi-tílburi ndithe cwaka. Ndifudumele, ndacinga. Ukungcangcazela okungafanelekanga kwangaphakathi, okudibanisa uloyiko kunye novuyo olungenakuphikiswa, kuyishukumisile intliziyo yam ngaphakathi. "Unyaka wonke ndingajongi esipilini ...", ndiziphindaphinde, njengelinye lalezo ngoma zibubudenge ngamanye amaxesha zihlala kwiingcinga zethu, ngaphandle kokuba sikwazi ukukuphepha.
Ekugqibeleni, sele nditsibela emaphethelweni ehlathi, endulini, yavela indlu. Abantu baloo dolophu bayibiza ngokuba liBhotwe. "Kodwa ayisibhotwe ... nje kuba ineengweletshetshe ezimbini ngaphambili ..." ndandisele ndingena kumnyango omkhulu, onzima, kwaye ndandileqa izinyuko. Ndiphosile-kwaye ngoku ndiye ndaqonda ukuba lingakanani-igumbi lam, lidala kwaye liphelelwe lixesha, nokuba belingenanto yakwenza namanye amagumbi amantombazana, njengoko ndibone kwiimagazini. Ngaphezulu kwayo yonke loo nto, bendikhumbula isipili esikhulu esisekhompyutheni yam.
Ngokwenyani-ngubani oza kuyithetha-ndiyiphosile indlu yonke, ukusuka eluphahleni nefestile yam endiyithandayo phambi komthi ukuya eMagdalena endala, umpheki kunye nomgcini wendlu, bonke bebonke, aba «badibene noMama noMama .. "Kwaye u-Iago, awambiza ngokufihlakeleyo" iShadow ", kuba wayebonakala ngathi akazinqumli kwisihlalo sakhe esinamavili, nangazo kanye iingcinga zikabawo, kunye nemimoya yakhe ekwabelwana ngayo ngemfazwe e-Afrika; Yonke into eyayibonakala ingwevu, iyindinisa, kwaye ayinyamezeleki kum, kubandakanya uKolonel. Ndikhawuleze ndenyuka izinyuko, kwaye inyambalala eyaziwayo yezinyuko zomthi kubonakala ngathi indinika uhlobo lokwamkela, nangona ndingenangqondo kwaye ndindisholo njengoColonel ngokwakhe: ukwanga ngokusesikweni esandleni kuko konke okwakuvunyelwe njengophawu lothando. «Emva koko ndiyokumbona… okokuqala ndifuna ukubona igumbi lam. Emva kwayo yonke loo nto, ujonga umhlaba kwisipili sakhe esinyibilikileyo ... ndizijonga kwezam, bendicinga, ngomxube ongacacanga wemfesane nokuziphindezela okufihliweyo kokungasasebenzi komhlala-phantsi. Ngelo xesha, bendihlala ndoyiswa kukungazithembi: kuye kwafuneka ndiziphindezele kutata, nangona ndingazi unobangela. Ngaba wayemthiyile? Khange ndiyilahle le ngcinga, kodwa kwangaxeshanye ndiyibeke ecaleni, ndisoyika, ndaye ndagqibela ndivusa ubugwenxa besiporho, endingenakukuchaza. Bendingamazi nomama. Ndiyazi ukuba igama lakhe nguHerminia, kwaye oko, kwinto endiyivileyo ivela eMagdalena, "ngoku phantse akukho mntu uswelekayo ngokuzala, kodwa wayenethamsanqa elinje." Ndivule ucango ndityhala ngezandla zozibini. Kwakunzima, njengayo yonke enye into esendlwini, kwaye loo grunt iqhelekileyo ikwabonakala ngathi ikrwela umoya, ngequbuliso, yabonakala ngathi iyonwabisa, kwaye ngaphambi kokuba izwakale njengokulahlwa. Kwakunuka ivaliwe, nangona yonke into yayicocekile kwaye icocekile. Ungabona izandla zikaMagdalena ("njengoko uMama wayethanda ... kunye nomama wakho, owazama ukumlinganisa kuyo yonke into ..."). Uya kuyeka nini ukuva amabinzana afanayo, uthetha ngabantu abafanayo? Phakathi kukaMagdalena noYago, owayekhathalela utata wam enezinja, phantse ukuzinikezela okucaphukisayo, babaleka indlu (okanye mandithi, "bayirhuqa", njengeenkumba). Kwakubonakala kum ukuba ubomi bam babuhudula, mhlawumbi ngenxa yoko, hayi kuba ndicaphukisa utata, ngaba ndigqibe kwelokuba ndingene kwikhaya loonongendi?
Ndavula ifestile, kwangena urhatya, phantse ebusuku. Ukusondela kwehlathi kunye neegadi ezijikeleze indlu kukhuphe umoya wasendle, wentwasahlobo eluhlaza. Yonke into yayibonakala ngathi iza kuzalwa. Ndijongene nesipili, ndaqala ukukhupha iimpahla zam, ndizisasaza ecaleni kwam, ndade ndaze, ndazibona ndikude ngokupheleleyo. Kwaye andisaboni ntombazana. Ndandijonge-ndibukele-okokuqala ngqa: umfazi omncinci, omhlophe. Isidalwa esingalifumananga ilanga, kwaye ngalo mzuzu ndafumanisa ukuba linxanelwe ilanga, lomoya. Umahluko wobumhlophe bolusu lwam kunye nobumnyama obukhulu beenwele zam phantse wandothusa, ngokungathi ayingowam, ngokungathi ngowomnye umntu. Lowo ibingunyaka wam wokuvavanywa, kwaye olandelayo, ukuba uyaqhubeka - awuzukuqhubeka - ibiya kuba kukungeniswa kwam kwikhaya loonongendi, ngoku lisandula kuqalisa ngokusemthethweni. Ndivule ngesiquphe ikhabethe kunye neelokhwe zangcangcazela zanyuka phezulu kwiihanger zazo. "Zonke iilokhwe zam ..." Ndaye ndazolula ndaza ndaziwola, njengabahambi nabo bangaphezulu, ngaphezu kwabahlobo. Kwikhaya loonongendi, ngexesha lokulingwa kwam, ndandingazinxibi, kodwa izikethi kunye neeblawuzi zazingenanto yakwenza nazo. Kwaye, emva kwexesha elide, ndajonga emehlweni am. Wayedla ngokuphepha ukundijonga emehlweni. Ngeli xesha ndiyenzile ngaphandle koloyiko. Zazihlaza okwesibhakabhaka, zinkulu, ziqaqambile. Ndimhle, ndazixelela ngokuvakalayo. Into ethile kunyaka ophelileyo eyayingavumelekanga ukuba ithi kuphela, kodwa ukucinga. Iihenjisi zomnyango zaphinda zancwina, wangena uMagdalena, engankqonkqozanga njengesiqhelo. Uye wandanga, zehla inyembezi.
"Ndixelele, ntombazana, ndixelele ...
-Kwaqala abanye beza, baphosa izithuko kunye namatye kumnyango omkhulu… Kwathi xa kurhatyela kwafika abo bephethe amagubu… Kodwa ngeloxesha, uMama u-Ernestina wayesele eqokelele thina sasisele, kuba uninzi lwethu lwalungekho ; Baye bagoduka okanye iintsapho zabo bezize kubalanda… Sasisele bebathathu kuphela: amawele kunye nam. Umama u-Ernestina wandixelela ngoko ukuba u-Yago uze kundithatha, kunye ne-tílburi… Ndonwabile ukuba eze ne-tílburi kunye ne-Mare Catalina. Umama u-Ernestina utshixe umnyango, kwaye yena namawele bandanga. Zonke, ngaphambili zazigcinelwe oko, ngequbuliso zangana.
Bendiziva ukuba ndithetha ngelizwi elikruqulayo, ngokungathi kunyanzelekile ukuba ndifunde ngokuvakalayo.
-Kuko konke? -Ndiyabuza
"Ewe, kunjalo, Magdalena… nje… ndiyavuya ukuba sekhaya."
Ayiyonyani yonke, ayikuko ukuba ndonwabile ukuba sekhaya. Ndiyavuya ukuphuma kwam apho. " Kodwa ngokusondeleyo ndandonwabile ngokudibana kwakhona nephunga lomhlaba kunye nemithi eyayingena ngefestile, eyayinciphile kwaye indingqonge njengomculo ongaqondakaliyo, ovakalayo ngaphakathi kum kuphela. Kwaye, ngequbuliso, safika isaqhwithi. Kwawa ivolley yemvula, engxolayo nengxolayo, wangena egumbini, wamanzisa umgangatho nathi sobabini.
"UThixo uyenzile ... uThixo akusikelele!" Wakhwaza ngaphezulu kokutsho kuka Magdalena, ehlanganisa izandla zakhe, ngokungathi uyathandaza. Ithontsi lamanzi lehla ebunzi. Wavala ifestile. Kodwa kwangoko wajika wajonga kum: "Awukayi kumbona uyihlo okwangoku ...?" Uye wema, ngokungathi woyikiswa ngamazwi akhe okanye into ayibonayo. Thixo wam, uhamba ze!
"Ungakhathazeki ... ndiza kunxiba kwangoko ndize ndimbone."
"Andizukuthatha thuba lide kukuphakela isidlo sangokuhlwa," wambombozela kwaye, esothukile, wongeze ngathi kuye: "Ihlwempu liza kukhathazeka, lilinde wena ... Wabona umlilo esipilini, kodwa emva koko ... uIago walindela ukuba ndiyokukhangela ...
"Ndikuxelela ukuba ungakhathazeki."
Ndithe ndindedwa ndavula idrowa yempahla yangaphantsi kwaye bendikhupha iimpahla ngolonwabo oluthambileyo, elangazelelayo. Ileyisi kunye nesilika zatyibilika phakathi kweminwe yam, ndavala amehlo. Kunyaka wam wokuvavanywa, kunye neempahla zam zangaphantsi kuye kwafuneka nditshintshe iimpahla ezinzima endinyanzelwe ukuba ndizinxibe. Wabathiya. Nangona ndingazibona ndinethamsanqa: ndazigcina iinwele zam.
Ndanxiba, kancinci, ezingubeni ezazingunyaka ophelileyo zazibonakala zingcolile, ziqhelekileyo, kwaye ngoku zixabisekile. Zingaphi izinto angakhange azinike ukubaluleka kwazo ngequbuliso zalangazelelwa, umntu unokuthi ufumanise. Kwakutheni ukuze ndiye kwikhaya loonongendi? Wayeze kufuna ntoni apho? Ngoku kwakufuneka afumane impendulo eqinisekileyo. Kodwa "phaya phandle ..." yonke into yayingaziwa, ingummangaliso. Ndizele kukudideka, ukungazi, kunye nentiyo endandingazi ukuba ngubani okanye ntoni, uloyiko oluhloniphekileyo endandiluva njengomntwana kunye nokufikisa kutata wam ngoku luvele lwajika lwaba luhlobo lwengqumbo. Kodwa nangaphezulu kwezi mvakalelo, isithukuthezi esikhulu, esingenamda sindihlasele nangakumbi, ndazibamba ngakumbi kunenzondo, kunye nokuzimisela endandikutyhalele, kunyaka odlulileyo, ukuba ndingene kwiConvent. Indawo engasenanto yakwenza nale ndiyikhumbulayo kwiminyaka yam yesikolo.
Ngaba ukukruquka kunokuba yimvakalelo eyonakalisayo? Ndijonge esipilini, besele ndinxibile, kwaye ndicinge: ndingumntu ongaziwayo. Andazi ukuba ngubani lo mfazi.