Mumazuva achangopfuura nyika yezvinyorwa zvakare ine protagonist yayo ichangofa Ana María Matute, uye ndezvekuti kana svondo rapfuura iye posthumous novel rakanzi "Demonios Familiares", nezuro aive protagonist mukuru weLiber 2014 pakuvhurwa kwayo.
Pamusoro pezvo, nhasi achave zvakare nyeredzi huru yemukamuri ino sezvo achapihwa mutero uye pachave nekuverengwa pachena parinozhe yake yazvino nyowani iyo yave ichiwanikwa mumashopu ese emabhuku kubvira svondo rapfuura.
Mune uyu mutero wekufa kuna Ana María Matute, zviso zvinozivikanwa kubva pasirese zvinyorwa zvakaita saCarme Riera, Pere Gimferrer, mupepeti Silvia Sesé uye director weRAE, José Manuel Blecua achapinda. Mutevedzeri weMutungamiriri weHurumende, Soraya Sáez de Satamaría, uye Gurukota rezvetsika, Ferran Mascarell, vachapindawo.
Mutero wedu mudiki kune munyori uyu, watakatemura nekuyemura uye kuda, ndiko kukupa iwe chitsauko chekutanga chenyaya yake nyowani, iyo iwe yaunogona zvakare kutenga zvakananga pakupera kwekuverengwa kweichi chitsauko chekutanga.
I - Hwindo remakondo
Humwe husiku Colonel ainzwa mwana achichema murima. Pakutanga akashamisika kuti ndiani, nekuti hakuna mwana anga agara mumba kwemakore mazhinji. Chakanga changosara, patafura yaamai padivi pemubhedha, paive nemufananidzo wesepia, kunyemwerera kuri pachena uye kusingachinjiki — avo vaiziva kuti zvaibva kuna Amai kana kumwana - zvaiyangarara husiku, kunge chikonokono chine mapapiro. Zvino ndangariro dzake, kunyangwe mweya yakasviba yemushandirapamwe weAfrica, yakanga ichiwedzera kuita semarara, zvasara, zvimedu zvechingwa patafura, kubva kumutambo wekare. Asi ndangariro yake yakadzokororazve mufananidzo waFermín, mukoma wake mukuru. Akavharirwa mune yake yemaveve velvet furemu, akapfekedzwa sairi, akazendama pamhete yemuti, uye anogara ari mwana. Kunge mweya unodzokororwa - "zvakashamisa sei, ndiye mukoma wangu mukuru, asi ini ndiri mukuru kwaari" - akaramba akadaro, hapana munhu akamubvisa patafura, kunyangwe mai pavakange vaenda, anga akaroora makore apfuura mwanasikana aive azvarwa, uye mudzimai wake Herminia, akange afa.
Kubvira pakatanga kusviba, aive akaiswa muwiricheya, nemusana wake kubharanda rakavhurika remba yekutandarira. Nekudaro akamira pamberi pegirazi raive rakasungirirwa naAmai pakona, zvekuti chero munhu akatarisa mukati maro, kana chero chinhu chinoratidzwa, zvaiita sekunge vachazvipidigura. Zvese zvaive panguva iyoyo, sekuda kwaAmai kutaura, "nhanho inopfuura zvayaitaridzika." Paakabvunza kuti nei girazi rakanga risina kunyatsopesana nemadziro, semifananidzo, akadzokorora: "nhanho imwe kumberi", nemhepo isinganzwisisike yemumwe munhu aripo uye asiri. Kubva parufu rwake akanzwa padhuze zvakanyanya kupfuura paakararama uye akatsvedza nepamba pasina ruzha, achigara ari mumasilipu, asinganzwisisike, semutakuri wezvakavanzika nemapasuru akachengetwa pakati pekotoni mvere yerunyararo. Uye ini ndainzwa kupfuura kurangarira zvinhu izvi pakapenya orenji mukona yekurudyi yegirazi, ichikura mudenga.
Pakarepo Iago aive padivi pake. Semumazuva aakange asati ari mumvuri-muranda (sezvaaimudaidza), paakanga achiri akarongeka, haana kumunzwa achisvika, uye akangoonekera padivi pake.
"Ndakuenda kunotsvaga Miss Eva." Iye ave kumba izvozvi, ”akadaro.
"Vakapisa imba yemasowe," Colonel vakagunun'una. Ino ndiyo nguva yake… Ndosaka ndanga ndisingade mwanasikana wangu… ”Akamira. Humwe hunhu hwaIago hwaive hwekuti aigona kuenderera mberi nekukurukurirana aine hushoma hwekutsanangurwa. Pakati pake naColonel paive netambo isingaonekwe yehukama hwepedyo zvekuti vaisatomboda mazwi ekuti vanzwisisane.
—Hongu, Colonel wangu… Yakanga isiri tsaona… Ndakaenda kugaraji, ndakasunga mboro kutílburi… Uye ndakamuburitsa, ndakamuunza kubva kumonisiti nguva pfupi vasati vasvika nengoma. Panguva iyoyo, aive akachengeteka.
"Vaive vanaani ..?"
"Zvakajairika, Colonel wangu." Ndiri kukuendesa kune imwe nzvimbo here?
"Kwete, ndisiyei ndakadaro, ndakafuratira kuvheranda." Ndinoda kuramba ndichitarisa zvese zviri mugirazi ... Chii chaunoziva iwe pamusoro pevasista?
"Vese vaenda nenguva yandinoziva." Vatatu vekupedzisira, Amai Ernestina, mukuru, aine vaviri vakasimudzira. Uye Miss Eva, neni.
-Chekupedzisira?
"Kwete, Colonel wangu, wekutanga pavatatu."
Ikozvino kupenya kwakazadza girazi kanenge kese, uye chimiro chemasabhabhu chakamira chakasviba chakatarisana nedenga chakakotama pamusoro pacho. Nhanho imwe mberi, akafunga. Uye akafunga kuti akanzwa izwi raAmai, mweya unofema munzeve yake, wakasviba uye wakapfava panguva imwe chete.
Yakanga iri pamwe panguva yaishungurudza zvikuru kuinzwa. Asi kuziva kuti Eva, mwanasikana wake, akange atove akachengeteka pamba, kwakadzorera runyararo runyararo rwaakange ave narwo munguva dzichangopfuura. Kunyangwe aive asina kumbobvumira kusagadzikana uku kuburitsa pachena kunyepa kwemweya wake usingazungunuke, kusagadzikana kwechiso chake. Hapana kana mumwe, mudiki pane vese mwanasikana wake, aizoziva kusagadzikana, kunyangadza kwakakonzerwa nesarudzo yake, zvakashamisa, kupinda semunhu achangotanga kudzidzira mukonisheni kwaakange adzidza, intern, kubvira aine makore manomwe ekuberekwa. Uye uyo asina kumbonzwa achitaura kurumbidza, chaizvo.
Iko kusemburwa, kwakawedzera kutya - hongu, kana kutya, aisakwanisa kuzvinyengedza - kuti zviitiko zvechizvino zvino zvakaburitsa maari. Masviti akapiswa, shamwari dzakatambudzwa, shanduko yehutongi, yemureza ...
Kwete girazi rimwe chete mukonisheni yese. Hapana kana girazi rimwe chete muchitokisi changu: akange asina kundiona kwegore. Ndicho chinhu chekutanga chakaitika kwandiri apo Amai Ernestina pavakatiunza zvakare muhofisi mavo. Yakanga yapfuura rinopfuura vhiki kubva paakange abvisa tsika yake uye "achizvishandura semukadzi," sekutaura kwaizoita. Takasara tiri vatatu chete, matwins ekumaodzanyemba neni. Vamwe vese vainge vadzokera kudzimba dzavo, kana mhuri dzavo dzainge dzauya kwavari. Amai Ernestina vakatifungisisa takanyarara kwemaminetsi mashoma, uye pakupedzisira vakatanga kuchema. Zvaive zvisingawanzo nyore kuona kuchema kukuru, isu vatakadedera kanopfuura kamwe. Zvino akatimbundira mumwe nemumwe ndokuti: «Iwe, Eva, una baba vako… Vakatotuma Iago kuti akutsvage: akakumirira pazasi. Ndinotora mapatya pamwe chete neni ... See you very soon, "ndokuwedzera ipapo," sekuda kwaMwari. "
Ndakasvetuka ndichidzika masitepisi uye, pandakaona kumeso kwaIago kwakakora uye kuri kunyemwerera, mune yunifomu yake inoshamisa yaakazvigadzira nehembe dzakaraswa neColonel, uye, pamusoro pezvose, mudiwa Mare Catalina, ini ndanga ndave kuda kumbundira vese. Asi ndakakwira tílburi ndakanyarara. Ini ndakapusa, ndakafunga. Kudedera kwemukati kusingaite, kwakasanganisa manzwiro ekutya uye mufaro usingadzoreke, kwakazunza moyo wangu mukati. "Gore rese ndisingatarise mugirazi ...", ndakazvidzokorodza pachangu, seimwe yenziyo dzekupusa idzo dzimwe nguva dzinotora pfungwa dzedu, tisingakwanise kuzvidzivirira.
Pakupedzisira, ndave kutokwenya kumucheto kwematondo, pachikomo, imba iya yakaonekwa. Vanhu veguta racho vakaitumidza kuti Muzinda. "Asi haisi imba yamambo… nekuda kwekuti ine nhovo mbiri kumberi…" ndanga ndichitopinda nemusuwo muhombe, unorema, uye ndanga ndichimhanya nemasitepisi. Ini ndasuwa - uye zvino ndazoona kuti yakawanda sei - imba yangu, yekare uye yechinyakare sezvayanga iri, kunyangwe dai yanga isina chekuita nedzimwe dzimba dzevasikana, sezvandakaona mumagazini. Pamusoro pazvose, ndakapotsa girazi hombe muwardrobe yangu.
Muchokwadi - ndiani aizozvitaura - ndakapotsa imba yese, kubva padenga remba nefafitera randaida pamberi pemuti kusvika kuna Magdalena wekare, mubiki uye muchengeti wemba, vese vari muchidimbu chimwe, avo «vakasangana naAmai naAmai .. . "Uye Iago, waakadaidza muchivande kuti" Mumvuri ", nekuti airatidzika kunge asiri kuzvibvisa pawiricheya, kana nepfungwa dzababa vangu, pamwe chete nemweya yavo yehondo muAfrica; chese chinhu chakange chaita sechachena, chisina basa, uye chisingatsungiririki kwandiri, kusanganisira Colonel. Ini ndakamhanyisa kukwira masitepisi, uye chimiro chinozivikanwa chematanho emapuranga chakaratidzika kunge chinondipa rudzi rwekugamuchirwa, kunyangwe sevakadzikama uye vanonyima seColonel iye pachake: kutsvoda chaiko paruoko ndiko kwese kwaibvumidzwa sechiratidzo cherudo. «Ipapo ndichaenda kunomuona… kutanga ndinoda kuona imba yangu. Mushure mezvose, anotarisa pasi pasi mugirazi rake rakarerekera… Ini ndinozvitarisa mune rangu, ndakafunga, nemusanganiswa usina kujeka wetsitsi uye kutsiva kwakavanzika kune asiri pamudyandigere. Panguva iyoyo, ndaiwanzo kukurirwa nerima kusagadzikana: ndaifanira kutsiva kuna baba vangu, kunyangwe ndaisaziva chikonzero. Akamuvenga here? Handina kurasa zano iri, asi panguva imwechete ndakariisa parutivi, ndikatya, ndikazopedzisira ndamutsa mhosva yemweya, yandakatadza kutsanangura. Ini ndaisatomboziva mai vangu. Ndakaziva zita rake ainzi Herminia, uye kuti, kubva pane zvandainzwa kubva kuMagdalena, "ikozvino hapana kana munhu anofa mukubereka, asi akaita rombo rakaipa kudaro." Ndakavhura musuwo ndichiusunda nemaoko maviri. Yaive inorema, senge zvimwe zvese zviri mumba, uye iko kugunun'una kunozivikanwa kwaitaridzawo kunge kuri kukwenya mhepo iyo, kamwe kamwe, yaitaridzika kunge inotonhorera, uye isati yarira sekurambwa. Yainhuwirira musty, kunyange hazvo zvese zvaive zvakachena uye zvakachena. Iwe waigona kuona maoko aMagdalena ("sekufadzwa kwaiitwa naAmai ... uye naamai vako, avo vakaedza kuvatevedzera mune zvese ..."). Iwe waizomira rinhi kunzwa mitsara yakafanana, kutaura nezve vanhu vamwe chete? Pakati paMagdalena naYago, avo vaitarisira baba vangu nedzidziso, ingangoita zvinosemesa kuzvipira, vakamhanyisa imba (kana kuti, "vakaikweva" senge hozhwa). Zvaitaridzawo kwandiri kuti hupenyu hwangu chaihwo hwainge hwave kudzikira, pamwe nekuda kweizvozvo, uye kwete nekuda kwekuti ndaigumbura baba vangu, ndakanga ndasarudza kupinda mumusangano?
Ndakavhura hwindo, madekwana akapinda, ndoda husiku. Kuswedera kwedondo neminda yemichero yakakomberedza imba iyi kwakapa mweya wekufema, wechitubu chakasviba. Zvese zvaitaridzika kunge zvaizozvarwa. Ndakatarisana negirazi, ndokutanga kukweva mbatya dzangu ndichidzitenderedza, kusvika ndave ndisina kupfeka, ndakazviona ndakazara. Uye ini handina kuzoona musikana. Ini ndanga ndakatarisa - ndakatarisisa kwandiri - kekutanga: mukadzi wechidiki, muchena. Chisikwa chakatambura kuwana zuva, uye panguva iyoyo ndakaona kuti yaive nenyota yezuva, yemhepo. Musiyano wekuchena kweganda rangu nekusviba kwakasimba kwebvudzi rangu zvakatoda kundishamisa, sekunge raive risiri rangu, sekunge raive remumwe munhu. Ndiro raive gore rangu rekutongwa, uye rinotevera, kana rikaramba richienderera - izvo zvaisazoramba ririko - kwaizove kupinda kwangu mumonachi, ikozvino zviri pamutemo novice. Ini ndakangoerekana ndavhura muwardrobe uye madhirezi akazunza kumusoro kumusoro pane avo hanger. "Madhirezi angu ese ..." Ndakatambanudza ruoko ndokuvambundira, senge vaimbobatana navo, kupfuura shamwari. Munzvimbo yemasista, mukati megore rangu rekuedzwa, ini ndakanga ndisina kupfeka tsika yacho, asi masiketi aibvumidzwa uye bhurauzi zvaive zvisina chekuita neizvozvo. Uye zvakare, mushure menguva yakareba, ndakatarisa mumaziso angu. Aigara achinzvenga kunditarisa mumaziso. Panguva ino ndakazviita ndisingatyi. Aive ebhuruu, mahombe, akajeka. Ndiri tsvarakadenga, ndakazviudza zvinonzwika. Chinhu icho chegore rapfuura chakarambidzwa kwete kungotaura chete, asi kufunga. Hinji dzepamusuwo dzakachema zvakare, uye Magdalena akapinda, asina kugogodza semazuva ese. Akandimbundira, akayeredza musodzi.
"Ndiudze, musikana, ndiudze ...
-Kutanga vamwe vakauya, vakapotsera kutuka nematombo kumusuwo mukuru… Zvino, pakwakanga kwasviba, avo vane madhiramu vakabva vasvika… Asi panguva iyi, amai Ernestina vakanga vatounganidza vamwe vedu vakasara, nekuti vazhinji vacho vaive vasipo; Vakanga vaenda kumba kana mhuri dzavo dzainge dzauya kuzovatora… Takasara tiri vatatu chete: ini nemapatya. Amai Ernestina vakandiudza ipapo kuti Yago anga auya kuzonditora, pamwe netílburi… ndakafara kuti akauya netiliburi nembudzi Catalina. Amai Ernestina vakakiya musuwo, ivo nemapatya ndokundimbundira. Ivo vese, vaimbove vakachengetedzwa kudaro, vakaerekana vakambundirana.
Ndainzwa ndichitaura nezwi rakabhowekana, sekunge ndakamanikidzwa kuverenga zvinonzwika.
-Ndizvo zvose? -Ndinobvunza
"Hongu, ndizvozvo, Magdalena… chete… ndinofara ndiri kumba."
Haisi chokwadi chese, hazvisi zvekuti ndinofara kuva pamba. Ndinofara kuti ndabudamo. " Asi padhuze ini ndaifara zvakare nekusanganazve nekunhuwa kwepasi nemiti iyo yakapinda nepahwindo, iyo yakadzikira uye yakandikomba semumhanzi usinganzwisisike, unongonzwika mukati mangu. Uyezve, dutu rakauya. Mvura yakawanda yakanaya, zvine ruzha uye zvine ruzha, yakapinda mukamuri, ichinyorovesa pasi uye isu vaviri.
"Mwari akazviita… Mwari varopafadze!" Akadanidzira kupfuura zvakataurwa naMagdalena, achivhara maoko ake, sekunge ari kunamata. Donhwe remvura rakayerera richidzika nehuma yake. Uye akavhara hwindo. Asi akabva atendeuka kwandiri: "Hausati waenda kunoona baba vako izvozvi ...?" Uye akamira, sekunge aitya nemashoko ake kana chimwe chinhu chaaiona. Mwari wangu, hauna kusimira!
"Usazvinetse ... ndichapfeka ipapo ndobva ndadzika kunomuona."
"Ini handitore nguva yakareba kukupa iwe kudya kwemanheru," akagunun'una uye, achiri kutya, akawedzera sekunge kwaari ega: "Murombo achanetseka, akamirira iwe ... Akaona moto mugirazi, asi ipapo ... Iago akafungidzira ndokuenda kukutsvaga ...
"Ndiri kukuudza kuti usazvidya moyo."
Pandakasara ndega ndakavhura dhirowa remukati uye ndanga ndichiburitsa mbatya nekunakirwa, kushuvira kufara. Tambo nesiriki zvakapfuura nepakati peminwe yangu, uye ndakavhara maziso angu. Mugore rangu rerufaro rekuyedzwa, kunyangwe chipfeko changu chemukati chaifanirwa kuchinjira mbatya dzakaomarara dzandakamanikidzwa kupfeka. Akavavenga. Kunyangwe ndaigona kuzviona semhanza: ndakachengeta bvudzi rangu.
Ini ndaipfeka, zvishoma nezvishoma, mune mbatya idzo gore rakapfuura dzaiita sedzisina kuchena, dzakajairika, uye zvino dzakakosha. Ndezvipi zvinhu izvo zvaaive asina hanya nazvo zvakangoerekana zvashuirwa, mumwe ungati zvakawanikwa. Nei ndakanga ndaenda kumasisitendi? Chii chaakanga auya kuzotsvaga ipapo? Iye zvino aifanira kuwana mhinduro inogutsa. Asi "kunze uko ..." zvese zvaive zvisingazivikanwe, zvisinganzwisisike. Yakazara nekuvhiringidzika, kusaziva, uye kuda kuvenga ini ndaisaziva kuti ndiani kana chii, kutya kwekuremekedza kwandainzwa ndiri mudiki uye kuyaruka kuna baba vangu zvino kwakazoonekwa kwashanduka kuita rudzi rwekupenga. Asi kunyangwe pamusoro pemanzwiro aya, rakakura, rinenge risingaperi kusurukirwa kwakandipinza zvakatonyanya kurema, kwakadzikama pane kushatirwa, uye kusagadzikana izvo, zvinoshamisira, zvakandisundira, gore rapfuura, kupinda muConvent. Nzvimbo iyo yainge isisina kana chekuita neiyo yandakarangarira kubva kumwana wangu wechikoro makore.
Kufinhwa kungave kunzwa kunoparadza here? Ndakatarisa kumashure mugirazi, ndatopfeka, ndikafunga: Ndiri mutorwa. Handizive kuti mukadzi iyeye ndiani.